It has been a while since I have missed you.
I feel I must begin with a disclaimer about the things that missing you doesn't mean.
I will refrain.
Sometimes there is beauty in creating a vacuum around the things that life has tainted.
That I have tainted.
It has been a while since I remembered the good just on its own.
But as I realise and acknowledge this, the dread creeps its way back in.
Again I will refrain.
I miss...
food
the importance of Sunday mornings and Friday nights
Sunday dinners and Sunday brunch
Herbal tea and chicken burgers
white hot chocolate and nederberg barrone
dreaming of venice and Switzerland in the winter time
cheeks and cupcakes
food
Not to disregard or ignore the darkness that surrounds this momentary vacuum
But sometimes the past needs to be celebrated even if I can't currently think of why.
I am envious of those who have mastered the art of salvaging that which we have been taught
is only good for the dustbin.
Sadness
That is common.
So just for today I create this vacuum where the things that were once beautiful
Are beautiful again.
